ih0peyouchoke

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 02:24:02 GMT

omg. i had a fuckin awesome time tonight. first i went to work and the new guy was there 5 mins n said he wanted a cigarette and then he jus took off lmao, poor jay. anywayss then i left at 7 and met elisha, kelly and courtney at the mall. OMG funny ass shit. then cassie went there and elisha dont like her so her n kelly left, and it was jus me cassie n courtney. cassie and courtney were all tryin on costumes omg .. courtney and her french maid one HAHA it was funny tryna get that off her. and then i was hittin her ass with a whip, people were lookin at us like we were crazyyy. im so glad i went, i wish i could go with her every friday but i gota fuckin workkk. oh well, in a couple weeks ill take that friday half off 2. I got the hottest eye shadows & pocketbook from hot topic OMG i love it. I had to like beg cassie to give me the eyeshadow cuz she wanted to buy it.. but NO i got it biznatchh. And my pocket book is so cute. its black and has starts and has a big pink gun on it.. woo. yeahhh i wana get a shirt from hot topic but i didnt wana spend like all my money in that store lol. anywaysss. mandie n me are talkin thats cool, but i think jessica is mad about that but thats okkk. yeah we kinda faught today in shop but not really, idc anymore lol. anywayss ima go play my sims cuz i miss them, and i gota work in the fuckin mornin. byeee.

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 02:17:21 GMT

psh. weird life i have! i had fun at work today tho .. gina quit so that sucks, its only me & lacey left! but OMG jay was pretending to be the guy in beevis & butthead omg it was hilarious, me & lacey were like on the floor laughin lmao. & some new guy is comin in tomorrow, who knows how long this one will last! i got paid today, not much cuz i gota give my mom money for gas and stuff so that sucksss. and im gona open a bank account too cuz i wana save some moneyy. maybe ill jus put it all in there lol, and wait til my next check so i can feel more rich =) who knows. anyways me & mandie started talkin again, and i guess jessica saw us talkin today & she got mad at mandie which is GAY but whatever. idk what her problem is. like honestly i dont say shit about her, unless she starts runnin her mouth about me. but whats even funnier about the situation is whenever i call her out on shit, she gets mad. fuckin PUSSY is waht she is. if you're gona say somethin atleast own up to it haha. anywaysss gen is so cute <33 we're both in desktop and we sit on myspace all day talkin to eachother. and sam is like obsessed with myspace lmao, its so funny. Soo daves bday party is saturday & idk if i should go. theres gona be smokin and drinkin and shit and idk if i wana be around that. i would ask mandie to go with me but that might be weird, so i prolly just am not gona go even tho i love my dave lol. hes gay tho, fuckin gettin a girlfriend when i started to like him, but thats ok cuz hes a good friend 2. and eric dayter omg, him and his lil internet girlfriends lmao, its funny as hell. he tells like 3253 girls he loves them, i guess he's cheatin on them cuz a couple of weeks ago we hooked up =) anywayss blah i gota get up early and take a shower, i am so tired in the mornin lately and it sucks. anywayss, i guess im done cuz im gettin fuckin tired as hell over here.. byess.

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 02:27:33 GMT

ODD day ill tell you. Yeahh i woke up late as usual but thats ok. School was fine. I guess supposedly now im tryna be a freak? lmao, yeahh thats why i wore a collared shirt today haha cuz im SUCH a freak. mhm. & now stephen is tryna set me up with his friend kenny & idk about that lol. i talked to him tonight on the phone & shit and he seems cools but idk. Maybe im not over stephen, even tho i was the one who broke up wit him. UGH i hate being so confused. Me & stephen used to be so close, maybe i just miss that close feeling of being with someone. I dont know. All i know is stephen once begged me to stay with him, and now hes so eager to give me to his friend. Maybe it hurts.

PAYDAYYYY.

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 20:27:10 GMT

GEEZ. finally i have like a couple minutes to myself here! Anywaysss im so happy cause tonight i am gettin payed & WOO.. im goin 2 sin on skin after i get outa work and the rest is a surpriseee =) Anywaysss, academics arent that bad anymore, im gettin used 2 it. I CANT STAND a few of my classes, mainly cause the people in them SUCK but thats okay. OMG x 32523542 this guy i like is in one of my classes, pshhh that makes my whole day when i see him & his beautifulnesssss. Anyways haha, i have to go to work in like 20 min, that fuckin sucks .. im only goin cuz im gettin paid other than that id fuckn stay home. Yeah & my fuckin locker dont open so i have to use joels, i left him a note in there haha =) Oh well, but yeah, psh .. i hate girls, honestly. Theres a few i just started talkin 2 in a few of my classes & they are really nice but ugh, some other girls i swear need to DIE. Yeah & so, my cousins REALLY TALL & BLACK & COULD GET A GUN/KNIFE/KILL YOU WITH IT, boyfriend was gona pick me up from school n shit today, BUT he couldnt cuz she needed a ride home from work, so that sucked. Hes awesomeee i love that kid. Yeah & im not talkin 2 nick no more, im done with that kid already. So whatever, i dont even really care lol. Me & Curt are goin to the zoo next saturdayyy i love that boy <333 hes such a good friend haha hes so gangsterrrr =) lmao but anyways i have 2 go get dressed & get myself looking non beastly for work so BYESSSS.

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 02:12:00 GMT

Pshh .. so much shit is goin on.

Ima write about it tomorrow, im too tired now lol.

hmm.

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 20:09:35 GMT

omg. the people in my shop are so two-faced i cant fucking take it.

But then me, i dont do shit to people, but they all decide to find a reason to come bitch at me. I leave everyone the fuck alone, but STILL they bitch at me. I go into a room, they tell me to get out. Someone says something nice to me, they say dont say that to her. Someone sticks up for me, they say not to. Its like wtf, i dont do ANYTHING. I treat people the same, i dont talk shit and if i do i say it to them, i dont talk about them and then when they are around be all nice, NO.

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE? Like honestly, you need someone elses approval, you cant not like someone cause you dont want them to not like you? WTF, its bullshit and my shop is full of them.

I wish i could meet someone like me. Everyone says they dont care what people do or say, but they do cuz they conform themselves to how the other person wants them to be. Me? im just myself and if you have a problem with that you can bring it to me and i can try to work things out with you, but i wont change for anyone.

God, i hate people.
ESPECIALLY THE ONES IN GRAPHIC ARTS B WEEKS.

yawn.

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 01:24:05 GMT

So, blah. My stomach hurts, i think my mom poisoned me lol. anywaysss i just woke up from a dream about mr fucking P, wtf. NOW HES IN MY DREAMS. GET OUT. so yeah its too complicated to explain but i was so mad in the dream that i thought it was real and i got up to tell my mom about it then i realized it was dream. So that sucked. Yeah anywayss i was kinda worried about school today cuz of jon n mandie but it wasnt like, ne thin lol. mandie is 2 scared to confront ANYONE, and jon is like a lil piece of shit && i talked 2 amber about him n her and jose are gona straighten him out, cuz jose is so gangstaaaa. haha. anyways & stephen came over fuckin yesteday i looked like an asshole with my hair a mess and my crappy clothes on, i was like WTF i look bad. hes like no you look beautiful. AWW. i wish he wasnt like he is. cause he treated me so good, oh well. yeah so idkk, im bored and tired. nick called me today during school and awww i was so happy =) even though i called him back and we talked for like 2 min then he said he would call me back in 5 min and never did, i wish he'd be like i dont wana talk rite now instead of makin asshole excuses but WHATEVER. i need to find someone new, hes only here to occupy me lol. Mr p drives me nuts. honestly i cant take him anymore. i miss mr v. so much. yeah so idkk, jessica pissed me off today. asking me to hold her drinks, psh. she acts like i want to do something nice for her,umm no. but i wouldnt say no cuz id rather her just go away. =) yeah so i wana see that movie just like heaven, but i have no one to go with me but oh well. idk, i need a boyyyy that i like. Joel called me pretty today, it made me happier then i acted. anyways lol. ummmmm im tired, and i miss law and order & its on right now til 10 then no more, so im not gona get to watch it today cuz my sleepy ass was sleeping all damn day. i think we found a home for the kitten, which makes me so extremely sad you have no idea. i love her, almost as much as bubba. and thats a lot. anyways, im too tired to type anymore, unless i come back cuz i thought of anythin else.

me = unhappy.

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 01:12:38 GMT

So, lately just everything seems upside down. School started, its nothing like im used to. I have barely anyone to talk to, and i always feel like someone is talking about me. Mandie lets all her new little "friends" say things about me, whatever .. she'll get hers. I'm done with mike, goddd hes a loser! I'm kinda glad that im over him already, i guess it shows i didnt really care about him lol, oh well. So now im talking to this guy nick. He's nice, he says the sweetest things ever. So who knows, lol. Im not gona get my hopes up, cuz usually i get let down. I dont really like the new teachers in my shop, i want mrs smith and mr v to come back =( Anyways, nicks online and i have to go in 19 min so im gona go talk to him <33

damn.

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 06:27:22 GMT

So after all that happened with mike, i sent him a mail on myspace askin him if thats really what he wants, me to just disappear from his life. He wrote back sayin that he just wanted to be alone tonight, and he would talk to me tomorrow. Im so confused now. i just KNOW that if he tells me hes sorry and he misses me and didnt mean it that im gona fall for it, thats just how i am. this suckssss but i know im gona be waitin for his call all day tomorrow, damn. But im goin to ambers for a cookout and shit so maybe that will keep my mind off of all this shit, who knowsss.

today sucked.

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 03:49:33 GMT

God, today sucked. I was supposed to go to the mall with courtney, mike and courtneys friend. Did that happen? NO. Turns out, courtney couldnt go, then all of a sudden mike couldnt go. Then i was mad at my mom and i was talkin to mike on the phone and i called her stupid and i called him stupid and he got pissed and hung up. So i was kinda upset all day cause of that but whtever, i got over it. Anyways, so then i talked to him tonight & he said he was still mad and i asked him where he was ... he said he was gettin high off caffiene all day, so i told him he was lying. Then he starts going off in spanish a bunch of shit and then signed off. Turns out he said i was a stupid bitch and he hated me and all this other shit and it fuckin made me so sad. And there was no one to fucking help me, i sat here crying & then stephen called me and all i did was cry omg it fuckin sucks. I'm so sick of fucking guys. Mike wont even talk to me, i hate this. And i tried fixing shit with mandie, she dont fuckin care about bein my friend anymore. she was the only one i needed and she dont care. she'll talk 2 me and shit but its different, idk. i just want to call her and cry and just hear her voice but she dont wana be my friend, so thats 2 people that i care about that i gota forget now.

i gotta pee.

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 02:57:34 GMT

So yeahh .. i still have the kitten. my friend mike's something was gona take her but she cant =( so anyways we found a place thats gona take her .. im kinda sad cuz i love this lil thing so much! im not talkin 2 justin no more cuz hes a COMPLETE asshole, yeah. && eric came over last night and wanted 2 do shit right in front of my house and so we faught over that and i jus got up and left him there so i felt good about that lol but idk, i dont even care if hes mad at me ne more! i havent talked 2 tim much, he seems like such an awesome guy but we just dont click i dont think, idk. anywaysss me and mike r gona chill tomorrow so idk where thats goin, he likes me and i like him but i needa get to know him a LOT better cuz we started out this "relationship" on a lie cuz he told me he was single and he wasnt .. but now he is so its all good =) yeah and now my moms talkin 2 some guy named gary and she really likes him so idk where thats gona go but i deff better meet him before she goes ne where with him! yeah, idk ... stephen is bein so stupid lately and going on undercover sn's to see whats goin on with me and he thinks im fucking stupid but im not & oh well, im all set =) anywaysss im gona go wait for mike to call me <3

so, today ...

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 07:32:14 GMT

i went over daves. we had fun =) haha but thats all im sayin bout that! anywayss so tonight i found a stray kitten and im trying to find her a home. she had fleas but i gave her a flea bath and i rubbed some stuff into her skin so shes all set now <33 but omgosh shes adorable! she has been layin on my lap and shit, so fuckin cute. nothin really besides that happened today lol. justins gf broke up with him which im not so upset about cuz i think he was an asshole for goin outwith her ne way. but yeah hes all depressed so i was tryna make him feel better && he might be comin over tomorrow .. then this other guy manny wanted 2 chill tomorrow ..damnnn all thse guys! i like this one guy tim though, i told him i wanted him to call me tonight and he didnt so that sucks. hes like a really awesome guy, we talked through mail on myspace and we have a lot in common & shit. then we talked last night and we got along really well. anyways, maybei came on too strong with givin him my number and all that lol but hopefully he dont think so. i am gona try stayin single for a MONTH! lol yeah i kno its kinda crazy since i date like 5 diff guys a month but ill do it, cause theres no reason to rush into ne thin .. i wana get to know someone before i get into another relationship cause i ALWAYS rush it and maybe thats why it never works. anywaysss idk.

damn guys ...

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 05:26:14 GMT

Blah so justin sucks =( he got a gf unexpectedly but whatever to that lol. im not lookin for a guy no more im sick of gettin hurt cause i get my hopes up and i always get let down, so fuck thatttt. IF a guy finds me and i like him .. great, if not then oh well if im single =\ So yeah stephen is just pissing me the fuck off lately like seriously i cant take it, i thought i wanted to get back with him and then he started actin wicked immature and shit so fuck thatttt! mhm && nikkis party is saturday idk if ima go cause my mom is so fucking poor and im not gona have ne thin to give her =( so im not sure?! so that sucks .. i slept over sierras house last night & watched raise your voice it was good i liked it lol .. we were up til like 4 but thats okayyyy. && ambers tummy is startin to pop out a lil bit its soooo cute =) yeah me and her went to the mall with sierra and my mom last night which was fun .. i did sierras nails and shit. Yeah speakin of nails mine r fuckin gay i cant get a right color for them and its pissin me off today .. damnnn my day is sucking. So yeahhh .. im talkin 2 this guy idk his name but he "really likes" me supposedly but whatever i guess we'll see where that goes && im talkin 2 this kid derek and hes cool.

NEW JOURNAL <3

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 06:00:27 GMT

Yeahh so this is my new journal dont u love it lmao.. yeah im on the phone with justin right now <3 hes so fuckin cute i love this kid so much .. but yeah. I feel bad for stephen, but i jus dont think we go well together ya kno? anywaysss im chillin with justin on friday & thats great cause i been talkin 2 him for a few days & shit, hes awesomeee =) yeah so me and mandy arent friends and it kinda sucks but thats ok cause its given me chances 2 make new friends and i like them better =)yeah but thats it for now cause im lazy